on the starting grid ,,,,

All my life's glory were gonna take a sadistic and rather pathetic look , if my worst fears came true. it was a day before my secondary school certificate results were gonna be in my face ,
it wasn't the fear of failure that wrecked my soul apart but fear of losing the battle to someone ,
someone whom i competed with , and was definetely better in the head , but this time around i had slackened my neurons a little , complaceny had crept in , the feeling of overpower had taken the better of me , and i knew only too well , i had failed to give my 100 percent , and that was gonna show tommorow , on the d day .
On that day little did i know , that complacency , that fear , were the best things that could happen to me . over these many years i have realized , i stood there on the starting grid of a new life , a comparable F1 circuit life , fast paced , adrenaline levels shooting all time highs , and surely a lot of red bull in the system ..
Those were the days when i started living my own life , for the first time though ,,, till then i had been living for my mom , my dad , my friends and for her ...... but one moment with ultimate untoward failure to acheive my goal , or rather my family's , changed the way i looked at things ,no more was there any fear of losing , no more were there any expectations from me ,
i felt freedom from life's burden for the first time and braced it with both arms wide open ,
And so i set out to preserve that freedom , to conquer all success ,,
so beware people ,, coz 'fear the man who has nothing to loose '